An Update: Snow, Mediocrity, and Humor

Ah once again I have failed to update in forever. Oh well deal with it world! Lets see what has been going on in my life? Well basically snowboarding, work, and school. I'm so happy that I can snowboard again. It makes me feel so alive flying down the hill with snow whirling around me. Snowboarding is really what I live for. I think i enjoy it so much because it really is just this extreem rush where i can be one of the best. I was never good at any sports, I really never enjoyed gym or basketball or any of these tthings but snowboarding was something that just felt right and natural and it is something I am really good at. I don't feel that i'm good at many things and this is the thing that I can be good at.

 That really brings to mind just how much I wish I could be better at so many things. How can I achieve my dream of being someone great when mediocrity swirls around me? I'm not completely crazy, I know i have strong points but I am never the best! I always fall just short of that first place.

Now I just took a bathroom break between this sentence and the last and was considerably cheered up out of my downtrodden mood by a Calvin and Hobbes comic strip. So I'm thinking that humor is really one of my stronger points and I need to figure out a way to express that in some crazy artistic of tangible way because if I was cheered by a comic strip I realized that the artist who drew it has made an impact on the world and really that is what I want.

Well that all was really random and may not make any sense. oh well

Till the next tick tock of the clock!

Drunken Rambling

So idk why but I feel a lot more open to talk when I have had some to drink. Like right now I've had some to drink and I feel like expressing myself. I kinda got to talk to my friends this weekend about me being gay. I had a talk with Jeremy right off the bat and then another with evan about having kids. The crazy conversation was with Josh though.we went to cookout on Saturday night and we had a long talk including me being gay but also about life in general. It was really nice because he was the one I was most worried about that would not be ok with me being gay. I just had had to explain to him that it wasn't really a choice but just who I am. He had some stuff to get off his chest as well and I hope I did what I could to support him and such.

It is really bizarre for me to finally be out in the open to a fairly large amount of ppl. I've just spent so long hiding it. I want a boyfriend real bad but at the same time it is kinda scary because my first boyfriend will be my first relationship that is for real.

Till the next tick tock if the clock!

Back to the Blog

I don't really know why but I really just stopped posting for no particular reason. It might have been because October has been a crazy overwhelming month for me. But as it comes to a close so does most of the daunting tasks. I think my favorite thing I have done recently is learn to blow glass. These are the things I created        --->     --->

Life has actually been going really good for me. I am now myself around most of the people I care about which is a huge relief. And by that I mean that I'm out of the closet about my gayness to friends and family. I avoided mentioning I am gay for the first era of my blog even though I know I only have one reader (talking to you Chelsea!). And I think it is really important to live life out loud and be all that I can be. I went and watched a play called "Angels in America" which was absolutely fantastic and I felt so bad for one of the characters who was gay and stayed in the closet his whole life. And I think that actually had a big impact on my decision to tell my group of best friends (guys) because I don't want to waste any more of my life being someone that I'm not. Coming out to everyone is kind of daunting though. High school is really good for me right now and I would hate for that to go away by some ignorant mean people. But it might be better now that I know I have some people on my side.                     

It might be easier if I was just more stereotypically flamboyant! Don't get me wrong I'm glad that I'm not but it is such a shock to people because I guess I just don't seem that gay. And if they can't figure it out how the hell are those potential guys supposed to find out? I guess the better likelihood of a boyfriend should go on my pros for coming completely out of the closet or not. I'm interested to talk to my best friends this weekend because I really haven't had the chance to talk to any of them since i told them I was gay. Well just to make this post a little more gay here are some pictures to show off the gay: 

Till the next tick tock of the clock! See ya :D

Harry Potter

Harry Potter has shaped me into who I am. I am a complete and total super nerd for Harry Potter. I have read each book at least 7 times (excluding the 7th), and that is a low estimate. They are just so amazing and I feel that as I've grown, so have the characters in those books. It is actually hard for me to describe exactly why I enjoy them so much. I guess it is because it is this magical world with all these crazy things going on but I can still relate it to my life. I don't even think I can write much more on it, I'm gonna go read the 7th book.

Till the next tick tock of the clock.

Green

Green is my favorite color.

 That is all. 



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My Room

How my room is may describe me in a way I can not. So here are some things you might find in the room of Tyler:

          
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Beard. To be or not to be?

A beard. The thought came up in drama class today when one of my classmates asked if they could have a beard in our production of Hamlet. My teacher said no to him because he is playing a younger character. But that got me thinking, my character Banquo is an older gentleman, it might enhance the play for me to have a beard. There are a few things to consider while deciding weather to have one or not

1. Can I pull off a beard?
            How will I look with a beard once it is grown, for all I know it could make me the most handsome man alive or just look like a serial killer. There is the question of what to grow too. If I do grow one I will most likely just not shave then trim it to my liking when the play is near.

2. Can I grow a beard?
            Is it actually possible for me to accomplish this feat of fantastic facial fanciness? I shave fairly often and it might be possible to achive it. I literally could not shave from now on though.

3. Will I be able to withstand how it looks until it is full?
       Yes.

I will decide soon and let all the thousands of you reading this know in a post soon.

Till the next tick tock of the clock!