So idk why but I feel a lot more open to talk when I have had some to drink. Like right now I've had some to drink and I feel like expressing myself. I kinda got to talk to my friends this weekend about me being gay. I had a talk with Jeremy right off the bat and then another with evan about having kids. The crazy conversation was with Josh though.we went to cookout on Saturday night and we had a long talk including me being gay but also about life in general. It was really nice because he was the one I was most worried about that would not be ok with me being gay. I just had had to explain to him that it wasn't really a choice but just who I am. He had some stuff to get off his chest as well and I hope I did what I could to support him and such.
It is really bizarre for me to finally be out in the open to a fairly large amount of ppl. I've just spent so long hiding it. I want a boyfriend real bad but at the same time it is kinda scary because my first boyfriend will be my first relationship that is for real.
Till the next tick tock if the clock!
